Renata's Story

I'm 29 today.

It's my birthday and I close my eyes and know that tomorrow I will be back at the abortion clinic again. My first abortion I got was right after my child was born in 2001. It happened so fast I barely remember. My second was in 2005 and the guy I was pregnant by, I couldn't imagine being a supportive father

Now here I am again about to go through it again, only this time I already feel a emptiness and sadness for I know I can't bring another child in this world. I'm struggling now trying to raise my 7 year old autistic daughter (my blessing) and though I want more children, in back of my mind I always get scared and wonder if I have another will he or she be autistic like my daughter. I'm just not ready for the stress.

I pray god knows my heart. Though I'm six weeks, I feel more connected in this pregnancy then my other two I aborted. I actually prayed for god to take it before the procedure so it won't go through pain.. Hope I don't sound crazy with all this. God bless everyone who has had one or about to. No one knows what each of us is going through. It's hard but I feel I'm making right decision. Love you all.

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